Lioness Davis

Hi there !

It's been a while since I gave you guys a life update and to be honset I haven't always been that open about my life but being on youtube and other social media plattforms I am opening up more and more. Social media is most of the time a wonderful thing but it can also be too much info haha. I wasn’t sure if I should go public with this at first but in my latest video about my one year hair anniversary I ended my video by saying that I would be MIA for a couple of weeks due to making some conscious selfish decisions. What I meant about that was basically that I needed to get my life together. My life wasn’t really a hot mess, obviously, but growing up with a narcissistic parent it really does things to your self-esteem. 

One of the things was not believing my inner and outer beauty. No matter who or how many times I heard people say “You’re beautiful” or “Kind” “smart” I just didn’t believe it. I would always be in messed up relationships with men who treated me like shit but being in a relationship with Azelia’s father was one of the best things in my life. Not only was/is he a wonderful person but also he is one of my best friends. Being in a four years relationship with him made me see myself from another light and I realized that I had a lot of things to work on but also that I had a few dependency issues and I was afraid of doing certain things. Not because I wanted to but because I was brought up thinking that I wasn’t good enough. I constantly had panic attacks when pushed in to a corner or could just have them without any reason due to PTSD. Like any other couple we had our ups and downs, and in the beginning of this year, I really looked at myself on the inside and did what I had to do to push through. I admitted to myself that there were things I needed to work on and I put up personal goals for myself. I decided to change the things I couldn’t accept and accept the things I couldn't change. 

 I decided that I would have to leave Azelia’s father to be able to 100% take care of myself and Azelia, I would have to work through the anxiety and start exercising and trying even harder to get what I want in life, with no excuses or letting fear get in the way. I decided to look more on the positive note and never ever depend on anyone to give me inner peace/joy/happiness or confidence. So far, so good. I’ve moved to my own place, I’m working as much as possible and trying constantly to do better than yesterday. I know my own worth and girl does it feel amazing! Sometimes I have bad days, but I am grateful because then I know there is a good day around the corner soon and I just need to continue. God has done amazing things for me in my life and I am grateful for the up’s and downs. So now I am pushing through as a single parent and me and Azelia’s father are in a good place. 

I'm still pushing to make my even bigger dreams come true, so please continue to support my channel and pages.

Give thanks for life <3